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Newnan, Georgia, United States
I am a yoga student continuously studying, taking workshops and practice, practice, practice.
Currently enrolled in a 230hr Yoga Teacher Training. I hope to share that with you here.
Born & raised in the south along the banks of the Mississippi in Louisiana. Married in 2003 and transplanted to Georgia.
A southern Yogini at heart.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Devotion

Goodness it is cold here! (I am sure my northen friends would disagree) But it is 20 degrees and windy. Luckily we have a nice warm fire going.
Lots going on, what else is new :)
I am listening to Eat, Pray & Love on CD during my 1 hour commute to and from work. My yoga teacher gave it to me to listen to. It is really good!
It really reminds me that I love to travel and hope to take that abroad some day.
So, Yoga related...
Monday night was Mysore class. After working a few hours at the office I changed and headed to the studio. The small mysore room was heated pretty quickly by our breath. It was cold and tiny flurries of snow (not enough to stick) were falling outside the fogged up windows while the 7 of us trugged through our Primary Series Practice. Well, I think one of the teachers was practicing her second series. However, I wasn't paying much attention. I believe I heard her talking about it after class.
My practice was...okay. I tried to stay focused on my mat. My body felt as if it was fighting against me. However, I made it through most of the primary series. I stopped just a few postures short of the entire series. Next week we are adding on another posture. In 3 weeks I should be proficient in the entire primary series.
After that nice sweaty practice a few of us mysore students headed to Whole Foods for dinner. While chatting over Tofu and juice I remembered that this practice is more to me than just asana. I was almost in tears when I finally went into Savasana last night. Mainly it was because I was so wrapped up in my practice and my obstacles. I actually thought for a moment "WHY do I do Asana?? It is so hard for my curvy body. I am not built for this. Perhaps if I loose a few more pounds it would be easier. But, how can I loose more weight. I eat pretty healthy." My thoughts went on and on. Finally I made it to Savasana and said to myself... no one cares what you look like in Yoga pants. No one cares you are curvy, why does it even bother me. Just let it go...
So I tried as hard I could to slip into Savasana. If only for a moment or two.

Then after exchanging emails with a dear friend & yogi today...she reminded me that Asana practice is an act of devotion to god. Whoever your god is. Buddha, Krishna, Jesus, Your own heart...it doesn't matter. As long as you do your asana as an offering to the higher power.
But Asana is more than just being bendy.
I have to continually remind myself of this. Over and over and over again. Even if I NEVER get my feet behind my head or if I always need help getting into headstand.
It doesn't matter in the end.
So...there is my mind letting loose on my keyboard.
Now time to hang out with my husband and stay warm by the fire.
I will check in a few more days.
Hug!

5 comments:

Monxo said...

beautiful post. I completely agree with you. yes, we need to dedicate our practice to something beyond ourselves. it is hard cause we are so much in love with our obsessions and our ideals (most of them selfish in one way or the other!) but there is always a time for everything...a time to let go. Ideally asana time is the time to detach...but -hey- like Morrissey sang a long time ago: some pants are bigger than others!!! Ha ha ha.

Keep on keeping on.

Anonymous said...

Such a moving post.

I'm with you on all the 'brain noise' that happens in the studio. I'm definitely a 'round yogi', and there are wall to wall mirrors down one whole side of the studio. If i catch my reflection, that's it, mental self-flaggelation a-go-go! Especially as I could once bind in Mari D, and now can't because I've gained approx 20 lbs! Grrrrrr!

I like what your friend said about every practice being a dedication to God, whoever your god is. I don't have a god, recently I have been dedicating mine to my FIL who sadly lost his battle against cancer in July.

Anyway, thanks for posting

Princess Maude xx

Brooks Hall said...

Thanks for sharing these wonderful words! Your body is a blessing.

elephantbeans said...

Ah, Eat, Pray, Love. I liked it. Heard she was coming out with another book...

Flo said...

I am so happy to hear from fellow yogis out there. It is nice to know we share a common thread. :) Namaste to everyone.