So I debated on writing this...but I am going to for several reasons.
I know that when we openly share things on the internet we sort of put a bulls eye on ourselves. We are left open for both good and negative comments/feedback.
I suppose this is the Yin/Yang, the balance, etc...
So...I received 2 anonymous comments regarding the size of my belly. I deleted the first one because I thought it was silly. However, I was sent another friendly reminder this morning.
This time I decided to publish it. This person is looking for some type of response...So here is your response.
Yep. You are right my anonymous friend. I have a belly and thank you for being inclined to remind me.
First, I have to say the comment made me slip back in to my previous patterns for a split second. The thoughts of dieting, loosing weight and all the fear associated with shape and size flooded in. I was soon comforted with my other conscious thoughts and reminders that I am happy. This reminded me that where I am today is a good place. I have come so far emotionally and physically.
4 years ago I was unhealthy, overweight and not taking care of myself. But, once I truly dedicated myself to the practice of yoga I began to loose the unhealthy weight, eat whole/sustainable foods, maintain a pretty regular asana practice and deal with many emotional issues that were hidden deep. Today, I am physically in better shape than I have ever been and I am at a happy healthy weight.
I am also at a place where I am emotionally okay. I love my curvy body (and just so you know my husband loves it as well and I am very lucky)
I feel amazing, alive, healthy and strong. I no longer strive to be what others perceive as beautiful or perfect. Because I already am...beautiful and perfect today. Belly and all.
The size of my belly has no bearing on my happiness. I believe it used to. But not today.
I truly believe the size of my belly is not an indication of my willingness to be a good person, a yoga student or fully present in my life.
I also feel that God, Buddha or Krishna (or any other being) don't really care about the size of my belly. I think it truly matters about the size of my heart.
Granted we all have things we wish to change. But the path I have chosen teaches to accept where I am, love where I am.
I also feel that the size of my belly doesn't affect those around me in a negative manner. They seem to love me. I love me. My pup loves me. I really doubt my pup looks at me and thinks twice about my squishy midsection.
However, for some reason the size of my belly has prompted you to comment on my post.
So thank you my friend. For making me feel strongly enough to respond to your comment.
I felt that I should. Because women and men face individuals such as yourself daily. It is important to remind myself of these things that I've shared here.
Also, it is important for women and men to know that doing yoga has nothing to do what shape or size you are.
Yoga is for everyone!